look i mean is it soo hard to notice that i dont like being left alone? i mean i addmit im kind of like a puppy dog sometimes. ill look at you meaning something but you wont understand unless your looking for my emotion. nyah whatever. to all those whove been not particulary blown off to say just sorta left alone to wait for someone to chill with. i feel your pain... an i dont like it just like you. [sigh], i mean jeez i really wish i just had a freaking car at the moment... i really just wanna be able to drive where i want and need to go to. an be able to leave when i want... its the most suckiest feeling in the world being left alone. its as if your stuck in a box persay. i mean its not really a place to be. all quiet. the only one there is yourself if you dont have a phone or internet. even then its still pretty quiet just thinking of what an where you wanna surf to web to take your mind off that your alone. Freaking a. why did i habe to go an hydro plane into that fucking pole an fuck up my transportation. i had to sell the altima and my freaking galant just to pay the wreaker bill... and yea i had two cars... and the other one drove but it would randomly shut off. i was working on fixing it an selling the altima. but no! i had to sell both for a measly 240 each! wtf?! i was so depressed an mad when that happened... now out of a car again. i wish that my schools furture holds its good promise. i want this to be a good steping stone for me. im not going lie i am still kinda skeptical about this. but im literaly being paid to go to school! $1000-$6000 actually. and i hope i can use the extra money to get a car. a working car. a car that will turn on an drive until i decide to turn it off an it doesnt look like shit. jeez. i just wont everything to start turning in my favor now. i mean i have been feeling so down in the dumps i would fight yell scream an cry uncontrollably for no reason i could not find a definite reason why i was doing all that. an i just sick an tired of it all............. i want it to be nothing but good news from here. please damnit nothing but good news! i mean havent i suffered enough!? im fucking tired damnit, leave it be an leave me alone im done with the bullshit! fuck you bad karma, go suck the fattest cock in the world an die! i dont wanna see you for a good 20 years! you hear me!?. if i see your smug face around my good mood ever again i hope you have a good way to escape me!
angry rant an ect.
DjMakeshift
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
Airsofting and more.
The biggest woodland area ive played at an the farthest ive ever driven too. well been driven too lol. Well first of all i was excited to hear that there was going to be an airsoft match where joseph was actualy going be at for once! an also that there was going to be maybe 60 players this time compared to our usual 8-12. yea thats a big difference. so i was soo pumped to go. but sad face for joseph yet again. cause he didnt come. something serious came up an he couldnt go... psh the drive up to the airsoft field felt like forever. it took like an hour to get there. an on top of that, noone brought a cooler with water or anything. lol we paid for it about 3 matches in. so we get to this field an its a woodland at the edge of a housing community. lol yea sounds bad but it was atcualy kinda fun! an we get there an it was pretty sweet. i saw the so called veterans of the field an saw they had some extreme guns! like there guns shot so fast a few of them were EBB, electric blowbacks . an i was rather impressed to see a few people with my goggles. an a cool dude with a turbin i think. idk his head was all wrapped in green cloth making it hard to see him even close. lol an i was the second person with no camo... yea i felt stupid but i had no money for camo. so i borrowed a jacket to help myslef out. i do think ill invest in some multicam gear. cause i was proned on the floor behind a tiny bush the first match an saw i an good at picking a hiding spot lol. i was atcually the last man standing on my team against 3 saddly they found me cause of my neon blue shoe laces. an that game was over. but there was this kid with a ak47 just like mine. an it didnt surprise me to hear his ak had a selector switch problem. an eventualy fell off... an got stuck in semi. poor kid, im stuck in auto xp dork. an on top of that that dumbass wore bright red nikes to the game. stupied. but i guess i fall in that category
too lol. an so it was a pretty good day all in all. i like these guys face protection. some were carbon steal wire mesh half face protection for your face an you wear any type of goggles with them. i wanna invest on one of those. an i need to invest on a new gun... mine is starting to wear down on me... every third shot it just vears off course. like a good 4-6 inches off course. its weird an idont like it. so ive gone to evike.com and airsoftmegastore.com to check out some new gun ideas an mesh face masks. i found all i wanted at both sites. i want a CYMA Romanian AK47 with fully integrated rail system an a folding stock. shoots about 440 with .20 bbs. ohyea!!! going dominate the competition lol so im going get down to business. i also found the masks for cheap at evike.com. they also have a butt load of different maskes that arnt good for camo but would be really cool to use for some CQB lol alien vs terminators battle ROFL!!! well im out of info check you guys later.
DjMakeshift
too lol. an so it was a pretty good day all in all. i like these guys face protection. some were carbon steal wire mesh half face protection for your face an you wear any type of goggles with them. i wanna invest on one of those. an i need to invest on a new gun... mine is starting to wear down on me... every third shot it just vears off course. like a good 4-6 inches off course. its weird an idont like it. so ive gone to evike.com and airsoftmegastore.com to check out some new gun ideas an mesh face masks. i found all i wanted at both sites. i want a CYMA Romanian AK47 with fully integrated rail system an a folding stock. shoots about 440 with .20 bbs. ohyea!!! going dominate the competition lol so im going get down to business. i also found the masks for cheap at evike.com. they also have a butt load of different maskes that arnt good for camo but would be really cool to use for some CQB lol alien vs terminators battle ROFL!!! well im out of info check you guys later.
DjMakeshift
Strange dream again 4/11/2011
Another strange dream,
so alittle back story to before the actual dream. So first of all me an my mom were in a small argument at home a couple hours before i slept. an i mean we were yelling at each other lol. anyway i think thats why i had this dream. now for the dream, i dont generaly remembered how it started but. i do remember yelling at someone from my room. an then from my room i get up in my jammies an walk to the kitchen where there is sorta a fish tank kinda color to the kitchen. an as i begin to look around i notice a rather large fish bowl Frozen to the floor with dime sized angel fish inside an an ugly sorta mini jew fish too, just swiming in the frozen bowel. an for somereason a couple of the same angel fish are outside the tank... swimming in mid air around the frozen bowel. as i try to gaze away from the scene of fish i notice the back door is wide open an its pouring rain. but its not wetting the floor. but it is very dim an dark outside. an i begin to change my view to the left of the kitchen. looking at where the dining table is there seems to be a green conyard. for those who dont know what that is. its a rather small parrot about 7-9 inches tall. anyway this bird was on the table an flew from the table to its cage. which is mounted to the wall. sideways, like the bottom is to the wall an its just there. an for some reason the gravity on the wall was different to where i was. you could walk up to the wall an walk on it. ... yea, an the bird entered his cage an sat on his swing, which didnt move at all. an for some reason my girlfriend Hermy was there on the wall playing with the bird.... huh? so after taking all this in i decide its time to wake up from all this. very strange but not the strangest thing yet. check back for more blog posting
Laterz
Dj Makeshift
so alittle back story to before the actual dream. So first of all me an my mom were in a small argument at home a couple hours before i slept. an i mean we were yelling at each other lol. anyway i think thats why i had this dream. now for the dream, i dont generaly remembered how it started but. i do remember yelling at someone from my room. an then from my room i get up in my jammies an walk to the kitchen where there is sorta a fish tank kinda color to the kitchen. an as i begin to look around i notice a rather large fish bowl Frozen to the floor with dime sized angel fish inside an an ugly sorta mini jew fish too, just swiming in the frozen bowel. an for somereason a couple of the same angel fish are outside the tank... swimming in mid air around the frozen bowel. as i try to gaze away from the scene of fish i notice the back door is wide open an its pouring rain. but its not wetting the floor. but it is very dim an dark outside. an i begin to change my view to the left of the kitchen. looking at where the dining table is there seems to be a green conyard. for those who dont know what that is. its a rather small parrot about 7-9 inches tall. anyway this bird was on the table an flew from the table to its cage. which is mounted to the wall. sideways, like the bottom is to the wall an its just there. an for some reason the gravity on the wall was different to where i was. you could walk up to the wall an walk on it. ... yea, an the bird entered his cage an sat on his swing, which didnt move at all. an for some reason my girlfriend Hermy was there on the wall playing with the bird.... huh? so after taking all this in i decide its time to wake up from all this. very strange but not the strangest thing yet. check back for more blog posting
Laterz
Dj Makeshift
Friday, April 8, 2011
Pondering the inquiries
DOT DOT DOT
What does it really mean,
To some it means and so on. to others it means a mean of thinking, an to others its a problem. lol to me to a conversation starter... well if you think about it. there is that awkward pause sometimes before anyone says anything, an then people speak. i also like to use it when im texting showing im uneasy or not accepting of a said answer. an i also seem to think its ok to use instead of atcualy speaking. word to the wise its not a good way to use it that way. on anthor note you may see that this post was put up late in the almost wee morning time lol as you can see from this i dont sleep alot... an i still have alot of my energy during the day. which i find pretty weird for most because of when i get the least amount of sleep. [2,4 hours] i seem to be, not tired but. sorta full. which is a weird thing to say but i find it ok to say. maybe cause im in zombie mode right now idk but one things for sure. i like not sleeping. if i could be awake an just take a pill that gave me the rest of sleeping without actualy sleeping. it would make my life so much more time =D like think of all the things i could do instead sleep. the things may be limited but atleast i have time. an ill be doing so much more. being so much more productive an so ... accomplished... hmmm i guess i have noone to talk to online lol. i mean ya i get page views. but to followers. noone really commenting except friends an stuff. meh idk started this blog for fun now just wondering... hmm... just thinking really,,, dont really know what to type either, im just sitting in the dark [literaly] typing this blog...
DjMakeshift
What does it really mean,
To some it means and so on. to others it means a mean of thinking, an to others its a problem. lol to me to a conversation starter... well if you think about it. there is that awkward pause sometimes before anyone says anything, an then people speak. i also like to use it when im texting showing im uneasy or not accepting of a said answer. an i also seem to think its ok to use instead of atcualy speaking. word to the wise its not a good way to use it that way. on anthor note you may see that this post was put up late in the almost wee morning time lol as you can see from this i dont sleep alot... an i still have alot of my energy during the day. which i find pretty weird for most because of when i get the least amount of sleep. [2,4 hours] i seem to be, not tired but. sorta full. which is a weird thing to say but i find it ok to say. maybe cause im in zombie mode right now idk but one things for sure. i like not sleeping. if i could be awake an just take a pill that gave me the rest of sleeping without actualy sleeping. it would make my life so much more time =D like think of all the things i could do instead sleep. the things may be limited but atleast i have time. an ill be doing so much more. being so much more productive an so ... accomplished... hmmm i guess i have noone to talk to online lol. i mean ya i get page views. but to followers. noone really commenting except friends an stuff. meh idk started this blog for fun now just wondering... hmm... just thinking really,,, dont really know what to type either, im just sitting in the dark [literaly] typing this blog...
DjMakeshift
Making fruity loops my subject
Hey,
So today im going talk about fl studio 9. [Fruity loops Music production software]. Well right now i have one song completed an working on 3 at the moment. i will have to buy a upc code but. thats another story. anyway, fl studio has alot to off but is not willing to show you. Meaning there so much you could do with this software. you can warp record twist cut snip. soooooo much its unbeleavable! but the thing that shirks people away is. there isnt much instruction to it. its bassicly a learn as you go. lol or as me an my friends do, youtube tutorials haha. well its a very fun program to get your hands on an start producing. if your in to that. i know i am lol wel check back later ill see if i can put up some samples of my music.
Later shalome an goodbye
DjMakeshift
So today im going talk about fl studio 9. [Fruity loops Music production software]. Well right now i have one song completed an working on 3 at the moment. i will have to buy a upc code but. thats another story. anyway, fl studio has alot to off but is not willing to show you. Meaning there so much you could do with this software. you can warp record twist cut snip. soooooo much its unbeleavable! but the thing that shirks people away is. there isnt much instruction to it. its bassicly a learn as you go. lol or as me an my friends do, youtube tutorials haha. well its a very fun program to get your hands on an start producing. if your in to that. i know i am lol wel check back later ill see if i can put up some samples of my music.
Later shalome an goodbye
DjMakeshift
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